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understanding the fine line between self-improvement vs self-acceptance is a skill i am learning
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im not sure if life stress ever decreases across time, but only your ability to handle that stress increases.
1 reflection
making the choice.
i would like you to bore into your subconscious. and by that i mean, to peer deep deep within. underneath all the layers of doubt and belief that you hide your Self with.
go beyond those frivolous protective mechanisms and feel yourself.
feel yourself with all the excitements a child would be enthralled by.
feel yourself with the fears and insecurities that keep you up at night.
feel yourself with all the questions that haunt you during mid-day breaks and lonely walks.
i invite you to really sink into yourself for a moment and listen.
it’s time to make the choice.
deep down, there’s a question or statement you’ve harbored for long. it’s a question that scares you. you’re worried the answer will be “no”. you’re worried the answer you get won’t be the one you want. you’re worried.
i am too.
that question changes from time to time, but right now that question for me is:
am i capable of taking that leap and succeeding?
when i ask that question, an instinctive “yes” comes to mind. but it’s loud. it’s not affirmative or brave, simply loud. almost like a toddler with shit in his pants. not proud, but loud.
so when i let the second answer come to mind, a “i’m not sure” comes to mind.
and that answer is real. it’s honest and quiet. and it’s scary. but that is the answer i have now.
i would very much like that answer to be “yes”.
i’ll make it happen.
i think you will too.
whatever second answer you get from asking yourself that deep, fundamental question, i want you to listen to it. i want you to sit with it. i want you to smile and give it a cookie.
and then slowly massage that answer into calmness. into simplicity and love. and let that answer speak it’s truth. and then tell it “it’s all gonna be okay”
and work your ass off. but in a loving way.
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