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gems of the week
list of things ive discovered and wanted to share
Talks with a Devil by PD Ouspensky
i love reading russian literature. they’re so wacky and funny and the narration is great. enojoy.
armaan updates
i moved to LA for 6 months. initially quite nervous, but things are panning out quite well. the sunsets are so pretty. that’s one thing very nice.
working on a 50-65 minute youtube video on frederick douglass, jean paul sartre, and gen z apathy towards life.
about 60% of the way edited. im bored as fuck with the video. i learned
1 - make sure to have a central visual or theme to come back to
2 - the script is the engine of a good video. bad script? bad story.(my script isn’t the best lol)
listening to a lot more house music recently. it’s good.
1 idea
i’m quite a judgmental person.
not in the sense of AHH YOU’RE A BITCH BLEHH BLEH BLEH, judgemental, but like “i’m-going-to-put-labels-and-archetypify-this-person-i-just-met-after-15-minutes”
i guess all their beliefs and behaviors and psychology just after a 20 minute conversation with someone. it’s like a switch i can’t turn off. this sorta “judgment”.
i reflected and realized this comes from a sense of superiority. or at least, i think a sense of superiority. by judging others, i make sense of the world around me and feel “i’ve got more control”.
but that’s not true at all.
it’s just the illusion of “control” or “understanding” the people around me, when in reality, it’s me projecting a thought of who someone is, not who they actually are.
thus, my incessant judging and ability to put people into boxes and archetypes isn’t a genuine love, but a deeper desire to exert some control over them(or elevate my own ego).
or at least, that’s what i think.
now this isn’t to say im going to STOP JUDGING AND THINKING CRITICALLY AND BEING INTELLIGENT.
but rather, there’s nuance.
and simply being aware of why + how i judge others is helping me.
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