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- christmas, i guess?
last week in sunny LA. as much as ill miss 7 dollar coffees, homeless people pushing broken shopping carts, and everyone wearing fucking sunglasses - i’m really excited to be back on the East Coast.
gems of the week
list of things ive discovered and wanted to share
this basketball documentary - The Magic Moment - about the mid 90’s Orlando Magic team
Tim Ferriss & Cyan Bannister - from homeless to Angel Investor
so many life lessons and spiritual tidbits
great for all my anxious friends who wanna start companies lol
Harvard’s CS50 class
wanna learn computer science from the ground up? enjoy
I love R&B
armaan’s thoughts
curiosity is the antidote to becoming a dead adult
a healthy amount of self-delusion, AKA Useful Not True Lies, can be great for you! just be aware they’re lies lol
Stay hungry, Stay Foolish - Steward Brand and The Whole Earth Catalog
1 reflection
dis-trusting your future self is an insult to yourself.
i hate to say this phrase, because it’s quite over used and watered down more than anytime i order whiskey, but i’m slightly kinda very much anxious about my future.
idk, im a weird kid, i’m decent at a few things, most of my skills seem to be soft(not flaccid tho!) skills like people, teaching, storytelling, listening, etc. im odd and don’t fit into a simple bucket. if you’re reading this, you’re probably also like that, but nonetheless, this is about me so let me be an egotistical bitch for a second.
due to that oddness and eccentricity, i sometimes worry how ill make money and live. i KNOW i can always get a traditional marketing 9-5 gig and do pretty well at that. i’m doing that RIGHT NOW. but i also know that i will probably shoot myself before i get my 3rd paycheck if i did that.
so anyways, i like to plan a lot and create roadmaps and structure-tize my life so i don’t have to worry about the crippling reality that i cannot really control what happens to me, only how i respond. but then i listened to this podcast.
and Jason Liu reframed the whole “worry about your future self” in a new light. because when you worry about your future and create a ton of plans, in a way, you’re distrusting yourself.
you’re assuming, in the future, you’ll be dumber or less informed or less capable than you are in the present. thus your present self has to come in and structure your life so your future self doesn’t fuck it up.
yet in my reality of life, ive never been dumber in the future than ive been in the present.
so in a way, planning for my future isn’t trusting my future self with handling his life then.
it’s kinda disrespectful.
so all this worry and anxiety and fear i feel about my future, it’s kinda demeaning and demoralizing and disrespecting my future.
interesting thought.
yeah.
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